I'm easily influenced, and I'm not a finisher/completer personality. Reading several book blogs led to me thinking I'd like to try that, sharing my love of reading. But, why? It's hard to write, even about things I love. And I have no expertise in analysing or reviewing literature. And no hope of developing that sort of expertise. I'm also reluctant to try becoming a book blogger, because I read slowly and my reading comprehension can be hit and miss. I'm also reluctant to praise an author, in case they are a bad person, or have hater tendencies.
On the other hand, I do want to get better at writing, a skill widely acknowledged to improve with practice. Writing blog posts, no matter the topic, would exercise my writing skills. And despite not being a successful blogger, I'm reluctant to abandon this blog completely. Is it a waste of my time and the world's resources? I don't know.
In my first blog post, I said I wanted to be more productive, and to keep track of my craft projects. These days, I don't really want to do that. My love of crafting has waned- maybe it will wax again, and I'm still making things, but I just don't have any passion for it, no passion to share. Also, since I'm not regularly commuting, I don't have that regular time to fill. Being more productive, making more things, also conflicts with my goal of not hoarding. When I think of something to make, my hoarding nature wants to keep hold of the tools and materials to make it, or even something like it, which isn't good for me, isn't helping me be happy.
I've had some ideas about what to do with my blog, but, just maybe, what I really want to explore is what helps me be happy. Not sure exactly how to do that. Feel like it isn't the success = more money concept, but it might not be posting only about positive things. It feels counter-intuitive to blog this, but I also think sharing might not be a source of happiness- it makes me feel like I'm competing for attention. What would I want to do and share with absolutely no one?